Something Bigger Than Myself
There is absolutely nothing that I can do. I’m totally helpless because there is something bigger than myself that is at play here. Every day I go out and look at the water rising along my seawall, and every day the water is slowly but surely creeping upward, it used to be 18 inches now it's maybe 6 inches from the top. And the water is rising, and I can’t push the water back, I can’t hold it back or wish it back the water is rising, and there is nothing that I can do about it.
Perhaps you have felt like that at times. There is this slowly but surely growing “thing” in your life that you can’t hold back from coming toward you and as much as you would like to prevent it from happening…there is nothing that you can do. It could be an operation that has to happen or a decision as what to do with an aging parent. It might be the prospect that your newly graduated teen will be leaving your home in the fall and headed towards college, making you an official empty nest house.
I've stood on my dock and have observed this rising water, but it didn’t happen all at once. It was a gradual rising, a slow rising, a certain rising. And when these things that come at us in our life came to us gradually, we tend not to notice them at once, but there is that aha moment. “Wow! What am I going to do?” Psalm 121:1 “lift up my eyes to the hills…where does my help come from? My help comes from the Lord, the Maker of heaven and earth.” In the face of inevitable change, in light of the reality that things are going to come at us that we’d prefer not to, we lift our eyes to the Lord, We pray, “Lord, hold me in your arms. Protect me, guide me, empower me, and equip me to face whatever is flowing toward me. I know You are with me always. I know You love me so much that you sent Jesus to be my Savior. Keep Your eyes upon me, surround me with Your protection and care. Remind me daily, even hourly, that You are my refuge and strength, a very present help in times of trouble” (Psalm 46:1) Amen!